Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Flare by Mary Oliver

My girlfriend sent me this poem today...


Welcome to this silly, comforting poem.

It is not the sunrise,
which is a red rinse,
which is flaring all over the eastern sky;

it is not the rain falling out of the purse of God;

it is not the blue helmet of the sky afterward, 

or the trees, or the beetle burrowing into the earth;  

it is not the mockingbird who, in his own cadence, 
will go on sizzling and clapping 
from the branches of the catalpa that are thick with blossoms,
  that are billowing and shining,
      that are shaking in the wind.


You still recall, sometimes, the old barn on your great-grandfather's
farm, a place you visited once, and went into, all alone, while the grownups
sat and talked in the house.

It was empty, or almost.  Wisps of hay covered the floor, and some
wasps sang at the windows, and maybe there was a strange fluttering bird
high above, disturbed, hoo-ing a little and staring down from a messy ledge
with wild, binocular eyes.

Mostly though, it was restful and secret, the roof high up and arched,
the boards unpainted and plain.

You could have stayed there forever, a small child in a corner, on the
last raft of hay, dazzled by so much space that seemed empty, but wasn't.

Then -- you still remember -- you felt the rap of of hunger -- it was noon --
and you turned from that twilight dream and hurried back to the house,
where the table was set, where an uncle patted you on the shoulder for
welcome, and there was your place at the table.


Nothing lasts.
There is a graveyard where everything I am talking about is,

I stood there once, on the green grass, scattering flowers.


Nothing is so delicate or so finely hinged as the wings
of the green moth
against the lantern
against its heat
against the beak of the crow
in the early morning.

Yet the moth has trim, and feistiness, and not a drop
  of self pity.

Not in this world.


My mother
was the blue wisteria,
my mother
was the mossy stream out behind the house,
my mother, alas, alas,
did not always love her life,
heavier than iron it was
 as she carried it in her arms, from room to room,
oh, unforgettable!

I bury her
in a box
in the earth
and turn away.
My father
was a demon of frustrated dreams,
was a breaker of trust,
was a poor, thin boy with bad luck.

He followed God, there being no one else
he could talk to;
he swaggered before God, there being no one else
who would listen.

this was his life.
I bury it in the earth.
I sweep the closets.
I leave the house.


I mention them now,
I will not mention them again.

It is not lack of love
nor lack of sorrow.
But the iron thing they carried, I will not carry.

I give them -- one, two, three, our -- kiss of courtesy,
  of sweet thanks,
of anger, of good luck in the deep earth.
May they sleep well.  May they soften.

But I will not give them the kiss of complicity.
I will not give them the responsibility for my life.


Did you know that the ant has a tongue 
with which to gather in all that it can be
of sweetness?

Did you know that?


The poem is not the world.
It is not even the first page of the world.

But the poem wants to flower, like a flower.
It knows that much.

It wants to open itself,
like the door of a little temple, 
so that you might step inside and be cooled and refreshed,
and less yourself than part of everything.


The voice of the child crying out of the mouth of the
  grown woman
is a misery and a disappointment.
The voice of a child howling out of the tall, bearded, 
  muscular man
is a misery, and a terror.


Therefore, tell me:
what will engage you?
What will open the dark fields of your mind,
  like a lover
      at first touching?


there was no barn.
No child in the barn.

No uncle no table no kitchen.

Only a long lovely field full of bobolinks.


When loneliness comes stalking, go into the fields, consider
the orderliness of the world.  Notice
something you have never noticed before,

like the tambourine sound of the snow-cricket
whose pale green body is no longer than your thumb. 

Stare hard at the hummingbird, in the summer rain,
shaking the water-sparks from its wings.

Let grief be your sister, she will whether or no.
Rise up from the stump of sorrow, and be green also,
   like the diligent leaves.

A lifetime isn't long enough for the beauty of this world
and the responsibilities of your life.

Scatter your flowers over the graves, and walk away.
Be good-natured and untidy in your exuberance.

In the glare of your mind, be modest.
And beholden to what is tactile, and thrilling.

Live with the beetle, and the wind.

This is the dark bread of the poem.
This is the dark and nourishing bread of the poem.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Sassing around!!!

Hi everybody!!!!! Almost a NEW YEAR!!!!!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Monday, November 8, 2010

Happy story!!!

Ten-day-old dolphin was discovered by walkers on a beach near Montevideo, Uruguay. 

The baby Dolphin was nursed back to health. 

YEAH!!! [source]

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Sad story...

This is a dead mother deer behind my house in the woods... I saw her yesterday and she must of just died and a coyote or something had just eaten her heart out... today when I went back about half of her was eaten away.

I had seen two fawns in the neighborhood who looked too young to be on their own... a friend who lives several houses away told me that she had seen a mother deer with a broken leg and the two fawns together...

So the fawns had been hanging around with their mother in those back woods and now she is gone... I hope the best for the fawns...

Saturday, October 16, 2010

My goldfish!!!

Today is my goldfish's birthday so I'm doing some special things for her! [Her name is SillyFish!]

I grew her some homemade mosquito larvae!

I decorated her bowl!!!!

Tigger again

And I got her some shows from Youtube for fun!!!!